Thursday, June 4, 2009

Confessions of a bibliophile...


In every room of our home there are shelves lined with books. It is a collection that continues to grow and represents a lifetime of a love affair with books. There are easily thousands of books; I counted them once. But as I sat one Sunday morning, enjoying a mug of peppermint tea, I began to wonder. I wondered how many hours were spent writing the millions of words in the books that line the shelves in our home. Hundreds of hours, easily; thousands, certainly. Millions? Perhaps. How much time was spent dreaming, scheming, plotting, sketching, writing, re-writing, editing, and reading? Certainly writing a book is a labour of love.

The books that line our shelves tell many stories… some true, some imaginary. The books also tell the story of our life- first separate and then together. Collectively, our books have become mingled and are nicely no longer ‘yours’ or ‘mine’; they are ‘ours’. What a wonderful transition. They tell of our interests, our passions, our wonderings, and our longings. They represent the many stages of our lives and give us a visual inventory of the many things that have crossed our minds. Our interests are diverse yet the books have sparked many hours of intriguing discussion and respectful debate.

There are the books about travel… when I had a wanderlust for countries other than my own. There are books of adventure… for the armchair mountain climbing enthusiast I had become. There are books on science and nature… to fulfill my curiosity of the world around me, at the microscopic and macroscopic level. Quantum physics and string theory are fascinating topics and sit proudly on the shelves, right next to the philosophical tomes pondering the reason for all things. There are books about stars and the cosmos; books about men who were imprisoned for their ideals and books about how the Flat Earth Society fell from grace.

There are books about God, books about the afterlife, about angels, about prayer, about civilization long before Jesus was born. There are even some bibles. There are bibles in English and Russian; there is even an illustrated Children’s Bible. Depending on my mood, I can revel in the formal beauty of the King James Version, or I can read the lessons in the New International Version language, which is more informal and quite contemporary. There are encyclopaedias about life in biblical times, books about biblical geography; a biography of Sarah, and one of Moses. The collection of these books reads more like a bibliography held by a religious scholar than for a curious reader who was encouraged to not get involved in religion when growing up.

There are books about pyramids and the magical number Pi. There are tales of wonder and beauty… from the Great Wonders of the World, to the Illuminated Book of Kells. Books of calligraphy are shelved near books on the Japanese art of origami. There are books of fairy tales, tall tales, folk tales, and an Encyclopaedia of Imaginary Places! Ghost stories from modern times and from Victorian times reside there; as do stories of science fiction from the 1930’s. Horror is there also, juxtaposed by stories of true crime. Sometimes what is fiction and what is fact are not as clearly drawn as real and imaginary characters are capable of things beyond our wildest imaginings.

On the shelves are books that will tell you how to make money and invest it. Books that tell what trends are coming and books that tell us how to simplify and give up what the mass marketing gurus have convinced us to buy. Keep it Simple, and Simple Abundance reminds us of how little we really need. When we have had enough of the fast-paced, hectic world, we can stop and read stories that are like old-fashioned chicken soup; these stories offer a cup of comfort and nourishment for the soul.

When we feel like it, we can go back in history and read famous letters and speeches. We can read treatises from some of the world’s most powerful leaders and the greatest cowards. We can glimpse into the past through a biography of a young girl who remained hidden within the walls of a neighbours home while she blossomed into a young woman, only to be betrayed and then die before her freedom was granted. We can cheer for the troops as we read about their bittersweet homecoming. They were glad to be home while at the same time heartbroken that they were forced to bury their comrades on foreign soil. They remind us of the beautiful feeling of the warmth and comfort a woman’s body can give when held pressed close while fighting off the cold sweats that come with the nightmares as they are haunted by the memory of those they left behind. There is wisdom in the written word shared by a woman who learned the ways of the world, who shares the richness of her experience through eyes that could not see and ears that could not hear.

There are books of poems and sonnets and plays. They are filled with words written to give our hearts a voice. There are words to describe the indescribable: joy, sorrow, hunger, pain, longing and lust. Heavy words of leaden moments offer searing truth. Other words of ethereal gossamer encourage our imaginations to drift to places as gentle as the mists that cling to the craggy mountain-tops in an imaginary land, free to ebb and flow on the currents of the winds of imagination. There are alliterations and illusions, tricks of imagery and sorcery to take us beyond the everyday mundane to places of dizzying heights and then safely back down again.

There are books that can tell us how to make things and fix things, how to buy things, and how to sell things. Some of these books give us the history of everyday things, and there are even books that explain seemingly unexplainable things. Miles of lists and piles of trivia keep us entertained and give interesting glimpses into the biggest, the tallest, the largest, the smallest, the oldest, the youngest of any person, place, or thing. These books contain the most obscure, and useless facts which have been painstakingly researched, organized, and catalogued.

Some books show us how to improve on our hobbies, chock full of creative ideas and interesting perspectives on topics ranging from gambling on cards and horses, to how to deconstruct a massive crossword puzzle, to how to string beads and knit fabric. We have spent many happy hours reading about our favourite activities which bring a greater sense of satisfaction to our everyday lives.

These many books have been collected over the decades, both before and since our lives came together. They are now a record of us. We have spent time browsing through dusty, disorganized bookstores, seeking treasures in the wildest places. We have also browsed through bookstores that are neatly organized, like ‘used-book libraries’, so meticulous and lovingly have the owners paid homage to the written word. We have had the good fortune to travel to bookstores across the country, in big and small towns, always finding something that we just had to bring home and add to our personal library.

The books we have collected have now become part of our family… our own little library we visit time and time again. They are lined up on the shelves, ready to share their riches. They keep us company on cold winter nights with topics for warm conversation as a perfect accompaniment to a whiskey served neat and a gently puffed pipe. The hours spent writing them are given back ten-fold by the hours we spend enjoying them.
Without them our lives would somehow be very empty indeed.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

A very dear friend of mine, whom I seldom see, mentioned how nice it would be to have lunch together. We mused we could catch up on so many things and simply enjoy one another’s company. As we both live in different countries and getting together for lunch is impossible, I created an “imaginary lunch” which will have to do until we can meet again in person some day.

Our Little Lunch

A table for two, right by the window, please.
What a spectacular view of the park and the trees.
It’s so nice to see you ‘cause it’s been awhile;
Your face is so bright when lit with your smile.

Carrot soup for a starter, with rustic French bread
We’ll talk of the books we’ve recently read.
Our conversation meanders to everyday news
As we catch up and linger at our table for two.

Fat berries from market, tossed in a jumble
Arrive at our table in a fresh berry crumble.
We nibble the berries, the oats, and the cream
While we safely confess of that which we dream.

Too soon it arrives, the tea at the end
Such a wonderful meal, shared with you, my friend.
You are busy, I know, but thanks a bunch
For joining me in our imaginary lunch.

~DR

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Feeling creative...




In the town where I live there is a lovely old brick building that used to be a school at the turn of the century. Now it is the Bowman Arts Centre, where painting, pottery, stained glass, and drawing classes are held. It is filled with works of art from all these media, and there is even a dance studio where ballet and bellydancing classes are held. I went there last nigh as I have enrolled in an 8-week drawing class. It was inspiring and uplifting to begin a class that lets me tap into the creative side of my brain. After spending the past 3 years working on my doctoral degree, it was a much needed change.

It was fun to draw on paper clipped to a much-loved wooden easel. There was every imaginable type of pencil to draw with: charcoal, willow charcoal, graphite, conte crayons, colored pencils, smudgers, and even kneaded erasers to fix mistakes. I learned about white charcoal and how it can be used on colored paper. I would love to try this sometime!

We worked through lots of exercises. My drawings of my hands were rough and crude. But, I learned about outside lines and inside lines. I learned about proportion and different ways to draw. Sometimes we used ‘shape searching’, other times we used a technique where the pencil was never lifted from the page. Some exercises even included drawing without looking at the paper. The goal was to train the eye and the hand to work together. It was a terrific evening!


I am already looking forward to next week!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Feeling a little Irish today...


Feeling a little bit Irish…

Newfoundland is one of the most beautiful provinces in all of Canada. Along her coastline are soaring cliffs that offer endless views of the sea. The ceaseless tide ensures she is demurely ensconced in a frilly white petticoat where her solid rock base meets the deep blue sea. If you ever have the good luck to visit, beware! Her tides will enchant you, placing you under a spell that is impossible to shake off, and her winds will echo in your heart, no matter how long or how far away you go.

Her people have a friendliness about them that is warm and welcoming, even if you are “from away”. Their sing-song voices have an accent that is unmistakable. And their music is unforgettable. It is all at once bold, bawdy, beautiful, and unmistakeably Irish to it’s very soul. Her “East Coast” music has it’s roots in Ireland, which lies just across the Atlantic ocean to the east. Cape Spear, situated along her shores is the eastern most point of North America. It is the closest to Ireland I have ever been.

I have been to this unforgettable Rock many times, and each time it grows harder to leave. The last time I was there I took a piece of her with me. In a jar on my desk is some sand and rocks from her beaches. On my wall hangs a watercolor painting from a local artist. In my memory the salty sea air hangs, pungent and sharp. In my ears I can still hear that wonderful music. It must have been fate that compelled me to buy a bodhran on my very first trip. I fell instantly in love with her music and wanted to play a part in it. My bodhran is a work of art in itself. It is a beautiful Irish frame drum, covered in goatskin and decorated with Celtic artwork of musicians playing the harp, the fiddle, the flute, and the drum. For years I have been trying to learn how to play this drum. I am getting better, but have a long way to go. I hope that someday the drumming will be as easy as breathing.

As today is St. Patrick’s Day, I plan to celebrate in my own little way. I will put on my “East Coast” music, turn it up so it fills the room, and I will once again play my drum. I will play it loud, fast, and furious. I will play it until my wrist is sore and I can no longer sit still. As always, it will feel good to get lost in the music, if only for a little while. I will be transported back to Newfoundland, a magical place that has captured my heart and imagination.




Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Libra moon...


Each night before I go to bed, I take a moment to find the moon in the sky. Not only do I watch her, but I like to think she watches over me. Long ago she cast her spell on me with her rhythm and mystery. Like the never ending pull of the tides, she continues to inspire in me a sense of wonder and curiosity. Tonight there will be another glorious full moon. With a forecast of clear skies, she will light up the winter sky and shine into my bedroom, bathing it in an ethereal silver light. Everything will be transformed and will take on a look that is otherworldly; once again I will offer thanks for the eternal guardianship given by earth’s only moon.

This particular full moon is special because I learned something about myself today. The moon was in the constellation of Libra on the day I was born. Libra is represented in the stars as ‘the Scales’. Among other things, this means that the moon’s influence on my personality is such that the desire for harmonious relationships and surroundings is so strong that I avoid personal confrontations or any expression of intense, unpleasant emotions. As an idealist, living in peace and harmony with others is of paramount importance. Inwardly I am often torn with indecision and am much more at odds with myself that others would ever guess, given my relatively even disposition.

I happen to appreciate the basic tenant of astrology, the “as above, so below” influence of the planets and the stars. I count myself fortunate to be the recipient of the gifts the natal Libra moon brings to my life.

Image by Josephine Wall as featured at www.mystical-art/com

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Our dreaming selves...


While reading about our dreaming selves I came across the concept of ‘dream appreciation’ which I believe is a perfect term. Less scientific than ‘dream theory’, or ‘dream analysis’ or ‘dream interpretation’. Our dreams speak the truth, uncensored. We can appreciate our dreams as one would appreciate a work of art. Our dreams are works of art, usually visual images. As a poet uses the language of metaphor, a dreamer will dream in images, an entire world of visual metaphors is created, rich and deep. Our dreams speak the truth, uncensored. Of course, these observations barely scratch the surface, but I have time to go deeper with my books. Last night there arrived in my dream in box a trio of dreams. In one of them I felt like I had fallen in love.

Here is something for you to think about: When we perceive images, independent of physical input, while awake, they are described as an hallucination. When we perceive these independent images while sleeping, they are called dreams. How strange that the perceived image can move from the ‘abnormal’ to the ‘normal’ simply as a function of one’s state of consciousness. The line indeed, is very thin…

“Dreaming permits each and every one of us to be quietly and safely insane every night of our lives.” ~William C. Dement


Image: Nap Time by Terri Windling, Endicott Studio

Friday, February 27, 2009

Heart song...


If you could have one special talent that brought you great pleasure, what would it be? If you could follow your heart’s desire, what would you do, or where would you go?

The special talent I wish were inside of me would be the ability to paint. I imagine the most amazing things in my mind’s eye, but they remain locked in my head; I long to paint what I see. The images in my dreams, in my waking mind, in my heart, they remain mine alone. I want to paint them to bring them to life, to give me the pleasure of seeing them again and again. As long as they remain within, they are eventually forgotten, never to be seen again, as if they are locked away in a box. I forget what is there. If I could have them as paintings, I could take them out, one by one, and enjoy their beauty all over again.

I have some watercolours and I have been painting, but my paintings are that of a child, or less so. The strokes are hazardous, coarse, and have no recognizable form. They fall far short of expressing what I so desperately want to bring out of me. It is so frustrating. I cannot make my hand and brush create on paper what is in my head, even though they are all physically connected during the act of painting. It is as if they are not able to speak the same language. I cannot make the imagined real. I feel mute, helpless, and frustrated, as if I want to say something important, but just cannot talk. I think I will keep trying, though. I just have to.

So I ask you again- what is your heart’s desire?